The Nothing Box

Peacefulness.
Just thinking of the word makes me feel better . I always wondered what it would be like to feel peace or fullness. We have to let go of a lot of things before we can enjoy the feeling of peace.

My husband and I attended a marriage retreat a few years ago and they used material from Mark Gungor, “Laugh your way to a better marriage”. Mark was describing a man’s nothing box translation: complete peace in a man’s brain because they are capable of thinking about absolutely nothing. I have been looking for this nothing box ever since. NO, I haven’t found it yet, but I did find a couple of boxes in my brain, and after going through those I realized that I can toss out the things that I don’t need anymore. I use to be a hoarder of thoughts, but over time I learned that having too much makes it impossible to have a healthy balance, especially if you are only taking things from one side of the scale and adding them to the other...s So I opened one box at a time and sifted through it and oh boy (or girl), did I hate going through all of the mess that I had collected over the past 3 decade. I started to toss out bitterness. I sat down and wrote down everything that I was bitter about. I read the list over and over and really thought about if all this bitterness was worthy of the space it in my brain it was occupying. Space that I really wanted to rent out to peace.
I still have some boxes to go through, but I am getting there. The understanding that those boxes in my brain are mine, and that I control what’s in the box, gives me more peace every day.