Mended faith? What does that mean to you?
Googledictionary.com explains the word mended: to make (something broken, worn, torn, or otherwise damaged) whole, sound, or usable by repairing.
The word Faith explained in the British Dictionary: strong or unshakable belief in something. I liked the British definition better than the American definition, and since I am a blogger, I can do that, I think.
Let’s be real here... we all need mending in one way or another. My journey to mending faith started in 1999, when I walked into Captain Haslam’s office at the Behavioral Health section at Edwards AFB and, for the first time ever, checked the box that said "have you ever experienced abuse?". I didn't realize until recently that, that’s when my journey to mended faith began. Wow! It sure has been a long time. 18 years! No that does not mean that it will take you 18 years to mend whatever it is that needs mending in your life. We just simply have to admit to ourselves that yes, terrible things happened to us... and then come out of this dark place that we call our "comfort zone", and begin healing.
I hope by sharing my story I will be able to provide you with the most important tools that I discovered on my journey to recovery. A lot of times we think we can fix something overnight... we get advice or answers from a counselor or therapist and we think, ok, now that I know I should be good to go. Then we realize it's not that simple, and are left, once again, disappointed. It’s like your house has a mold issue, and of course, it gets worse over the course of years, because you have no idea that you have this problem until it starts showing. At first you notice little wet spots, but by that time the mold has already done its damage. To get to the root of this problem you have to treat the issue from the inside out. It’s the same for us. Damage that has been done to our body mind, soul, relationships or marriages over the course of years will not be fixed overnight. But there is hope. We take steps, steps we may feel are unecessary because we already know how to fix the problem. Step by step, we mend the issues that are imbedded deep within us. I tell myself every day, "today is the first day of forever".
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